It’s already the 21st of December—nearly the end of 2010 of our imperfect Gregorian calendar, and time and everything else absolutely whizzed by like a harried storm. Exactly a year ago I was about to celebrate a warm Christmas in Melbourne, perhaps even awaiting Esther’s arrival with her aunt while I tried to get into [...]

The subject of mortality and how it’s indiscriminate regardless of age is rather surreal—we’re at that age when we feel like we’re all immortals, and those clumsy, tiresome old-age diseases like heart attack, rheumatism and lord knows what else are still decades down the line. Yet a good friend of mine, Jon—my web designing partner [...]

In this desert of broken hearts I stood and walked on the broken pieces, dragging my feet over the shards, purposefully and frivolously bleeding, puncturing the epidermis. Everything is fine: I’ve a good job, partner (albeit several continents away), family, friends—yet something is profoundly missing. I’m uncertain if I’ve immersed myself into the dark, beautiful [...]

Last Sunday I picked PY up from her place in Puchong and together we went on a journey to Seri Kembangan, a place that I’ve never been in my 22 years of living in Malaysia (no shit wtf, and I’ve explored nearly every other South-East Asian country and the South Island of New Zealand but [...]

Days like this I feel like I’m completely, utterly displaced from this part of the world, or this world in general—like my soul is trapped beneath the shadows of Nevermore. That I feel all hope and faith I had in humanity had dissipated, snatched away by the caws of Nevermore to carry forth whence it [...]

The national pedagogy of being skeptical of strangers rang true for me when I was in search of the New Paris restaurant at SS2 two Tuesdays ago for a goodbye dinner for Tomoko, who was here for a while to resolve some of her visa issues. My electronic soulmate, the GPS that’s in my current [...]

Amidst my working routine that I’ve suddenly eased into despite being apprehensive at first prior to entering the working adult’s world, it dawned upon me I had dreams and aspirations that were never fulfilled in light of things that rendered my situation to be different—like those three words. Circumstances thus changed and priorities thus shift, [...]

On random days while I’m working on something menial or while taking a shower or in conversation with someone as my concentration migrates elsewhere, I seem to snap awake with a sinking realisation that I actually hold a job now, that I’m now 22, and that in a little less than 3 years from now [...]

The realisation that I’m getting old hit me after a Meeples session with py and Jerm two weeks ago or so – a female friend of Jerm’s who joined us told us that she was only 17 despite sounding incredibly mature for her age, and I realised that it was 5 years since I sat [...]