I’ve had a bad day yesterday, followed by a sequence of events that seemed to have awakened a part of me that was never meant to be summoned. As I reeled through the waves of rejection and dejection that compounded in me, I received a phone call that lasted for 1 hour 11 minutes and [...]

My cursor hovers on the white blank sheet of your MSN window. That vertical black line – the guiding line that follows any typed text – blinks continuously like a heartbeat, expectant. I’m not expecting much, I know this will never be reciprocal – but if I know this much, why does my heart yearn [...]

Through the lucid qualities of this hot pink mass, I am angry. I am disappointed. I am all but rational because it seemed to have left me. My self-esteem took a hit. Confidence counts are so low I need a regular injection of it like a diabetic patient with his insulin. It is not a [...]

Within these four walls of my bathroom, it was the only place on earth where I can truly be myself, without the self-consciousness asphyxiating me – it was as if the water that trickles from the showerhead was an agonising acid perforating layer by layer of my body straight to my core. And there, this [...]

今天坐了她的后面。 一直看着她的背影。 开心，是因能看见她的洁白又可爱的脸。 --- Alvin sent me an e-book yesterday of Neil Strauss’ The Game – a true tale of the author’s life who turned from journalist to pick-up artist. I dismissed it at first, thinking it was some preposterously ridiculous how-to book, but as it was written in a personal point of view, I [...]

There’s a metal on metal sound clinking somewhere in the distant – a metal spoon scraping upon a metal bowl. The rhythmic sounds were passionate, methodological, and you can see its engineer, wiping his sweat away upon his shiny forehead as he worked with the utensils. I wish my world is in that bowl. Spooning [...]

I always wear my seatbelt so I’d always be safe – a simple precaution that’s supposed to be normal, common, that everyone unconsciously wears. Tiny surprise incidences aren’t suppose to damage me or hurt me in any manner, but when this seatbelt of mine goes faulty, I sustain superficial injuries from superficial actions that hurt [...]

It was raining on Monday night. I returned to my house from Jon’s place, my car driving through my porch as the twin automatic gates clicked shut behind me. I turned my car key and took it out from its slot, and as the radio blaring out channel 98.8 and the soft purr of the [...]

Withdrawal symptoms surfaced, and I couldn’t help it. I can’t seem to break away from chasing love and lust all around – I know I mentioned 6 months ago that enough is enough, any sort of further investment is detrimental to my mental health but how can one help it? I wish I could be [...]