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I meant to post this about an experience I had four nights ago, but I forgot. It’s an experience that I can only attribute them as an out-of-body thing, or sleep paralysis, or an odd mashed-up combination of both.

I remember dreaming about something, probably ambling down a happy lane suckling on a lollipop when without warning, my mind literally awoke with a start – imagine, if you will, your eyes opening quite suddenly while you were asleep, except that my eyes were still closed but my consciousness was alert as hell. A loud rushing sound surrounded my ears, and because I had read on a lucid dream website about the sound being associated with an out-of-body experience, that was actually the first thing I thought about, “Shit, am I experiencing being out of my body?” wtf.

This intense, unexplainable fear gripped me just as sudden and fiery as my consciousness that seemed to have surfaced above my dreams out of nowhere. I don’t recall what exactly I was being afraid of, but I kept telling myself to stop thinking and go to sleep – I vaguely remember seeing my own body on my bed without opening my eyes.

In the end, all I did was to tell myself to go back to sleep, relaxed myself, and my consciousness gradually returned to its original slumber. It was weird that I didn’t exactly attempt to fly – literally – somewhere else or do things that are normally physically impossible due to the various laws of nature governing us (because it was just my consciousness floating around, remember?), but it was probably that fear, like a round ball so compact with gaseous materials of fear and being terrified, that stopped me. I think I was also probably afraid that if my consciousness (or soul, or whatever we accord names to it) were to leave too far away, it would never be able to find its way back to my own body wtf.

I also didn’t make up this story just to entertain you people because I’ve better things to do than false reporting, on my own blog no less.

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This week is probably the most productive holiday-week of my life – I’ve been working on HS, studying, revising my Japanese.. it seems as if everything that I’ve done are beneficial to a certain extent.