.truh

There are times when people say things that make me take things quite seriously, and as a result, I’d wonder why this person says the things he or she says, leaving me in a bulging confusion, and as corny as this may sound - anything emo-ish is bound to be corny anyway - hurt. Sufficiently hurt.

I’m not a very conflict-friendly person, already proven through some silly personality test. This test also says that I’ll do things at great lengths to avoid conflicts, and when they happen, I try to avoid ‘em, which can be pretty inaccurate. Okay, maybe part of it is true because I do tend to avoid ‘em previously, but times have changed.

I don’t know if it’s my fault entirely most of the times, as in previous conflicts I had. And most of the time people misinterpreted my gestures and non-verbals and took offense - and guess what’s the most incredulous and ridiculous part? I didn’t even say a word! Worse still is the fact that I seem to be sending all sorts of signs that seem to want to offend the other party when these thoughts didn’t even cross my mind, and when the time comes for people I dislike annoy me enough to want to annoy them in return, these people don’t get it.

Of course at this point there are two things I could do (possibly more, but let’s just stick to these two): I could claim wtf and to further avoid conflicts why not I just fucking stop communicating altogether, or I could try and resolve these tentatively sensitive grounds as amicable as possible.

The latter is the obvious choice, but when you’re as abundantly confused and hurt and pierced and drained as I am, sometimes you just want to shut the world out.